Sandra always had trouble keeping names straight. Perhaps it was her large family: six sisters, ten brothers, thirty-six cousins and their children. Perhaps it was the ghosts she saw every night before she went to bed. Maybe it was the menagerie of pets in the barn that seemed to multiply. It could be the number of people who visited her every night asking her for favors and granting wishes. It could be the voices in her head. She wasn’t sure. She just knew she was horrible at keeping names straight.
“Who’s Madeline? I’m Sarah,” her sister said puzzled. “And you’ve really got to start remembering Aggie’s daughter’s name. It’s Evelyne. She’s going to get you for that some time.”
“Mhmm,” Sandra said cutting up some carrots and sticking them in a stew bubbling on her stove. That’s part of the reason she hosted family reunions was so she could stay out of the hustle of trying to remember everyone’s name.
“So what’s Aggie’s daughter’s name?” Sarah asked after a pause.
“Evelyne.”
“Good. Don’t let this be a repeat of last time.”
“Fine, Dahlia.”
Luckily her sister had left the kitchen to go ogle the newest baby before she noticed Sandra’s second slip up. She reached for ingredients and wafted around the kitchen preparing dinner. The noise outside her little haven was almost deafening as names through around the room.
“Evelyne,” Sandra repeated quietly. “Can you help me remember that?”
“Sure can,” said a voice in her head. She called it Charity.
Sandra set the dinner out on the large dining room table and rang a little bell. Almost immediately her family filed into the chairs around it and started passing the food. Sandra watched happily before slipping into the kitchen, pretending she had forgotten something, to eat her dinner. She didn’t like sitting next to that aunt. That aunt always expected her to know the latest family news and names.
“Oh there you are!” someone said coming into the kitchen. “We were worried the kitchen ate you when you didn’t come out!” The woman smiled at her own joke and then glanced down at Sandra’s half eaten dinner. Her smile faded. “What are you doing?”
“It’s sounds like everyone is done,” Sandra said. “I’d better clear the plates.”
“No, no one’s done. Aunt Mira wanted to know where you were.”
“I was just getting some things.”
“Don’t lie, Sandy.”
“I-I just get claustrophobic in that room. There are a lot of people.”
“Well you could have said that,” the woman smiled gently. “We would have left you a seat near the end. It’s all right, I’ll tell them you’re ok and you can eat in here. But geeze, Sandy, you could have told us.”
Sandy sighed in relief and sat down at the kitchen table again.
“Did you have to say that?” a voice in her head chimed, irritated. “That’s a lie and what will everyone do now.”
“Well if everyone believes it I won’t have to go to any more family reunions.”
“Don’t be stupid,” the voice said. She referred to it as Bitterness. “They’ll just make sure its somewhere with more open spaces than your house. You screwed up big time.”
“Just shut up,” Charity said. “Well worry about it when it comes.”
“It?” Sandra asked, but she was suddenly aware of another presence in the room. She turned around to see her brother smiling.
“Do you always talk to yourself?” he asked mischievously.
“Yes, I do,” she answered bitterly.
“Claustrophobic, huh? That’s new.”
“You know I hate these family parties.”
He sat down on a chair beside her. “You know what, I can’t remember everyone’s name either.”
“Sure you can, you’re an actor; you can memorize anything.”
“Only if I care. So don’t sweat it.”
“But I don’t remember anything!”
“You don’t remember anything?”
“Well, I can remember how to cook and dance and that kind of stuff, but I never remember peoples names. I don’t even remember yours!”
Her brother looked shocked, but he relaxed quickly and put a hand on her shoulder. “Sam.” He said softly. “Do you know who I am?”
“Well sure, you’re my brother. I talk to you just about every day.”
“And you don’t remember my name?”
“I’m not ill,” she said quickly. “I just have a lot to remember.”
“Sandy…” he paused. “How much do you have to remember?”
“Well our family’s pretty big. And I’ve got Charity and Bitterness to juggle along with Frank and Fib. Taylor visits on Saturdays, Megan and the girls on Tuesdays and Fridays. Whats her name comes with her husband for tea on Wednesday. I think the boy is John, but he comes Mondays after school for cookies. His mom is a sweet person, but I don’t remember her names. I’ve got Madeline and Dahlia in the barn along with Peter, Blossom, and Cotton-Tail…and their kids. I’ve got a cousin named…oh, yes, Evelyn and well, Jack likes to visit on Thursday sometimes. I’ve got a ton of names.”
“You have a barn.”
“Didn’t you see it?” Sandra’s stomach tightened. “It’s there with all the animals.”
Sam raised an eyebrow. “No.”
“Come on, I’ll show you.”
“Sandy, we’re in the middle of Chicago, no one has a barn.”
“I do.”
“Sandy, I’m worried about you.”
“Don’t be, I’m fine.” Tears burned her eyes. “I’m fine!”
Sam scotched his chair over and put his arm around her shoulders. She fell sobbing into him and tried to breath. She had remembered his name. She had just wanted to make a point. She would always remember her little brother Sam, if nothing else. She was older, but he had always protected her and cared about her. He knew everything. Now, absolutely everything. And he was scared. She was numb and terrified.
"I remembered your name, you know," she said softly.
He sighed. “I’m afraid for you, Sandy,” he said softly. “Just hang on until we get you to a doctor, ok. I’m going to stay the night in the guest bedroom.”
“You don’t have to,” she said. “Please don’t.”
He gave her a pained expression that she knew she couldn’t argue with. “We’d better get going before someone comes in here thinking we’ve died.”
He gave a small smile and took her hand as they left the kitchen.
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