Lucid Waking

“Not much between despair and ecstasy”

Just a quick question…

So I’m trying to reorganize my posts because I’m not quite satisfied with the way they are now. It’s a bit messy with certain posts in two different categories and other posts barely in one. But, with any category system, there are some that just don’t fit. Regardless, there are three ways that I can do this:

1. I can keep it the way it is categorizing by genre. I suppose this allows you to look for things according to your favorite genre.
2. I can categorize by archetype, i.e. Paradise Lost, Apocalypse, God Teacher, etc. Again, this focuses on content, but is a more specific way to organize my things. If you don’t know about the archetypes this might be a difficult way to find posts, but there is a search bar.
3. A combination of the two. This will put a post in at least two different categories, so I’m hesitant to do this, but if it would be easier, then I will.

Let me know what you think as a reader, because right now, I’m stuck.

The Ugly Princess

    Once upon a time there was a little princess who lived alone. None of the other princesses would look at her. She was not a pretty princess. She ruled over a bouquet of flowers. Her flowers thought she was pretty, but she didn’t.
    One day, when the princess was feeling particularly ugly and the other princesses were out and about, the princess went to a pond to be alone. She pulled out a piece of paper and a pen and started to write. She knew she was special (as all princesses were) but it was hard for her to look at her reflection in the water. As she wrote, a water lily opened up on her pad. Noticing the princess, the lily sighed daintily.
    The princess turned around. "Sorry, I didn’t notice you."
    "Well, why not? Everyone notices me."
    The princess was taken aback. "I’m sorry."
    The lily sighed again. "What’s wrong?"
    "Well, I’m not very pretty."
    "Don’t be stupid," the lily said, "you’re beautiful."
    "All the flowers think so. But the princesses don’t."
    "How do you know? Has anyone ever told you you weren’t pretty?"
    The little princess blushed. "Well, no."
    "And who cares about what the other princesses think anyway?"
    "The princes and kings and queens and all their subjects."
    "Who cares?" the lily said, irritated. "They’re all nobodies. Your subjects love you and that’s all that matters."
    "But what are flowers," the princess asked trying to save face," they can’t think, they’re small, and no one cares about them."
    The lily laughed. "Humans are too superficial and they change too much. Flowers know who they are and what they want to be. They will always be there for you as long as they live."
    "They don’t live very long."
    "No one does. Especially not humans; they’re very careless."
    The princess turned away from the lily and stood up. She looked at her reflection in the lake and saw that she was pretty. Not as beautiful as some other princesses but she didn’t care. She smiled and went back to her flowers, a little bit happier.

Train of Thought (Part 2)

           Alex watched the last little boy gallop up the golden stairs with a rock in his heart. The train whistled impatiently and opened her doors to the last car. Throughout the ride, she had seemed more and more intolerant of small cliché slip-ups and he was getting more and more nervous the more cars he visited. She seemed to dislike that he had traveled so far into the game and now that he was almost done, irritably impatient. The last car was dusty except for one seat where a tall adolescent sat with a little girl on his lap. The girl’s breathing was labored and stuffy as she slept cuddled next to the boy’s body. The boy holding her looked no older than sixteen and he gently cradled her back and forth. Noticing Alex, he started to stand up, but Alex stopped him with a short raise of his hand and sat down in the seat adjacent.
           “It was December,” Alex started gazing at the girl, “when Frederik’s sister fell ill.” The lights started to flicker, but Alex ignored them. “Frederik lived alone with his sister in a small cottage next to the church. He was a stubborn boy and insisted that he have his own house. His parents had left them alone at least seven winters ago and Frederik was just getting used to living on their own. The pastor and his wife watched over them, but mostly, they were self-sufficient. So when she became ill, he didn’t know what to do for her and asked the pastor’s wife for help. She ended up taking away his sister into the church leaving Frederik utterly alone.”
           The second boy cocked his head at Alex with a tint of anger. “What sort of story is this?” he asked.
           Alex shook his head. “I’ve to keep going wherever it leads.”
           The boy set his jaw and brushed a bit of hair from the little girl’s face. From the look of her sweaty locks, she had a fever, but was still sleeping soundly. The train started to speed up in warning, but the lights remained constant.
           “In search for a friend, Frederik traveled the lands alone. A few people he met let him stay the night and gave him food, but their kindness seemed plastic and forced. He traveled on until he came to a ladder going up into the boughs of a tree. He couldn’t see any end to the ladder or where he would end up if he climbed it, but upward and onward he went. Eventually he reached the boughs of the tree and sitting among them was a little orange bird. The bird turned to him and started to sing. Frederik felt something tugging at his back, but he ignored it and pulled himself up so that he was sitting on the top rung of the ladder.”
           The train shook and the lights flickered, but Alex continued through the chaos. The little girl had woken up and the young man was rocking her gently back and forth. “The bird hit the final note of its song and in a soundless flap, fluttered upwards. Forced by something he didn’t know, Frederik soared above the clouds his newly formed orange wings beating steadily behind him. The bird led him to a mountaintop that was devoid of snow where an entire village of people with brightly colored wings lived. They came out to greet him from their huts on the peak.”
           The station started to pull into view and Alex’s stomach knotted up. “With the growth of new wings, Frederik forgot his sister and lived contentedly the rest of his days with his new-found friends.”
           The door to the train creaked open and Alex got out. The boy carrying the little girl followed him into the familiar station. The train sped off with an indignant huff and left the three of them in the exact subway station where Alex had started.
           “Didn’t you get my message?” the boy asked sitting down on the bench and cradling the little girl.
           “What are you talking about?”
           The boy sighed and visibly swallowed back tears. “There’s a catch. The girl you first met, Persephone, her sole purpose is to get people to go into the second train. So, she tells them to do a noble cause and go into the first, and the first train takes you in a circle for the second train to pick you up. The game is rigged: everyone wins no matter how creative they are or not. The rules only apply to the last car and if you don’t succeed, you have to stay there.” The boy paused and looked down at the little girl. “She’s cold,” he said and felt her sweaty neck for a pulse. “She’s been sick since we got onto that car.”
           Alex bit his lip. “What’s the next part of the game?”
           “You get into the second train and you’re never seen again.”
           Time seemed to stop as the boy dropped the girl and let her slip off his lap. The thud of her dead body hitting the ground reverberated around the walls and up the stairs, echoing Alex’s sealed fate. Alex sat down next to the boy as he started to cry and held him closer as if sympathy enough could suppress the pained sobs.
           “My sister and I,” the boy said pushing himself upright and rubbing away his tears, “were just walking downtown looking for a present for our mother when we realized that it was getting really late, so we went down to the nearest subway station. Persephone approached me down here and told me that the train was done for the day, but if I went into the first train, I could get home pretty fast. So I do what she says because, by now, my sister is scared stiff. And we met this little boy who explained the rules of the game. By the time we got to the last car, my sister had probably gotten herself sick from crying and the temperature changes. It was freezing in the car and warm outside, so whenever the door opened…” The boy paused and bit his lip to stop crying. “God, it’s almost as if they wanted her to die.” He took a deep breath. “In the last car, there was an elderly man being held at gunpoint by a deranged man. The gunman told me that he figured out the game and that the point of it is to die. The old man just sat there and stared and says in this mechanic voice—I’ll never forget it—he said that the point of the game is to go into the second train where you will just keep going until you hit your destination. And the gunman yelled at the old man asking where the destination is. My sister was hysterical and the train had started going down the track when all of a sudden, the old man grabs the gun from the second man and shoots him screaming that he’s scaring the child. Everything was silent and he dropped the gun and told me to start telling him a story. So I did and when the station pulled up, I stayed on the train. Persephone kept coming back to take me out of the train, but for some reason she couldn’t go into the car. Finally, she told the first train to get a move on. We got around to our beginning destination enough times that I stopped counting at fifty-five. My sister got worse and I didn’t know what to do. I don’t know if Persephone stopped getting storytellers for spite, or they never got farther than the second car, but regardless we stayed there. One day she let me out only because I complained about the dead man and she let me carry him to an alley and leave him there. That’s when I left that note in the alleyway for you, because I knew that you could get us out of here.”
           Alex frowned. “How did you know that?”
           The boy smiled. “Don’t you recognize me? I’m that boy who used to travel on your train every morning. Tony took a lot of pictures of me looking out that window. You know, the one you wrote Autumn about.”
           “I didn’t know you knew about that.”
           “I didn’t until I became part of the system,” the boy stood up. “Every time we came to the last station, the doors would open and Persephone would be waiting for me to come out. Often she would talk to me, but one of these times I noticed that there was an underlying voice to the one she was projecting into my head. And when I focused on that voice very well, I could hear what it was saying. I realized that I could hear her thoughts; the real thoughts that she has that she thinks no one can hear. But I can eavesdrop on those conversations she has with other people in their heads, too. I can sort of sense her when she’s near and what she’s thinking. She has no idea I can do that.”
           The second train started rumbling down the track like an impending storm. The boy stood up. “I’m Chris. And I think I can be use to you in part two of her game.”
           Alex sighed and faced the upcoming train. He picked up Chris’ dead sister and placed her neatly on the bench. “I have a feeling I’m going to need all the help I can get.”

Train of Thought (Part 1)

            Consider it, I don’t know, a warning. The note was left taped on the shower door with those seven words typed up in small letters on an otherwise blank white piece of paper. It was neatly centered in the middle of the page and just stared at him from its resting place as he prepared to take a shower. He ripped it off the tape and flipped it over several times, but couldn’t find out who was trying to warn him of something.
            Alex Duval shook his head and put the note on the kitchen table before shutting the door and going to work. The morning was foggy and wet, as usual mornings in New York were in the middle of spring. The metro station was only a few minutes walk from his apartment, but the words of the note started to worry him and he hitched a taxi down the station. Considering the small amount of cash he ever carried with him, it was easier to pay for the small fare to the station, he thought, than the long ride to the office. Besides, he added to help convince himself as the taxi pulled up, no one would kill in the middle of a train full of people.
            “Something got you down?” the driver asked, looking at the young man from the rear-view mirror.
            “Just take me to the nearest metro station,” he said, avoiding eye contact with the driver. He looked out the window at the people passing by and at the constant stops of traffic flow he would check that the two back doors were locked.
            “Well fine, keep that to yourself,” the driver said after a long moment of silence, “Besides, here’s the station.”
            Alex thanked the man and apologized for his silence, giving him an extra tip. When all exchanges were in order, he boarded the train. Alex always stepped into the fourth car from the driver ever since he had first used this route to his, then, new job. He considered moving into another car, but he had made a few friends and they all had traditions of going into that particular car. This is getting really silly, he told himself as he walked down the platform, no one is going to harm you. It’s just a stupid note. After spotting his friend’s face as soon as he stepped in, Alex breathed a sigh of relief.
            “You look like you’ve seen the dead; what happened?” his friend said, moving his duffel bag over a seat.
            “Whatever, Tony. I don’t really want to talk about it.”
            “I’m on your side, whatever happens,” Tony said and turned towards the window.
            The train lurched forward with a metallic slide and sped creakily down the track. Buildings flew by like streaks of gray on a big white canvas that was the sky. The sky eventually disappeared as the train flew further and further in the heart of the city. Even at this early in the morning, New York was throbbing with intensity especially as it started waking up and drinking coffee. The honking of cars was evident in the train car as it slowed down and reached its first destination.
            “You sure you’re ok? You haven’t even pulled out your notebook yet,” Tony said glancing at Alex, worry etching his delicate features. Tony was a tall lanky gentleman that looked nineteen no matter how many years went by. His hair was a short dark chocolate brown that would reflect sunlight even though there was none in New York. He was a photographer for the New York Times, so he was always with his camera, sometimes taking pictures of whatever Alex chose to write about during the commute.
            Alex shrugged and smiled. “I’ve written all I’ve seen about going into New York. After six months of this routine there’s nothing left to describe.”
            “Don’t give me that,” Tony smiled back and went back to looking out the dirty window. “You’ve written about people not just the scenery.”
            “Well, after six months, they haven’t changed much either.”

            It was the following Saturday when he thought about the letter again and it was the last Saturday he remembered. He was waiting for his boss at the lower Manhattan train station when a tall lanky woman came up to him. Her blue eyes scanned him from his brown eyes down to his black dress shoes and up again lingering where his hands were shoved into his pockets. He turned away from her and started farther down the station.
            Don’t go, she said, her voice echoing through his head. You’re that novelist. I’ve heard about you; you’ve saved those kids from that earthquake last year. You’ve got a silver heart.
            He turned around. “Most people would not agree.”
            Well, you only have a silver heart, not one of gold. Still, she walked over to him and ran her hand from his shoulder down his back, you seem like the type of person who’d be interested in helping out a good cause.
            He stepped away from her. “Sorry, I don’t hire prostitutes.”
            She laughed a dinner-bell sort of laugh that melted his previous inhibitions. Her mouth curled into a smile as she pulled up beside him, her hands now at her sides and she made no other move toward him.
            You think the train is done for the day, she said looking him in the eyes with a cold intensity, but it’s only just begun. You see, this train likes stories and secrets—it has such a vast collection. When it pulls up to the station, it will wait for you like always until the next train pushes it away. Tonight, you take the first one and, like always, I’ll be in the second. I can promise you, she finished as the rumble of a train grew in intensity, no one will hurt you.
            The train pulled up to the platform and smiled. Well hello sugar, it seemed to say and slid in neatly so he could take the first car. Alex stepped back warily and looked for the woman. She had disappeared with the first train’s arrival, which ironically had signaled the butterflies in his stomach to flap their wings frantically. Ain’t ‘cha gonna get in? the train said, pouting playfully. Alex looked up the stairs for his boss, but didn’t see anyone or hear anything besides the rhythmic breathing of the train.
            Consider it, I don’t know, a warning, he recalled. The rumble of a second train with more masculine intensity started crescendoing as he stood. Damn, the first train said under her breath and started pulling away.
            Alex was never one to go towards an adventure, and he knew this. But the overwhelming feeling of last chance opportunity was too much. Curiosity and guilt were the only things driving him as he ran towards the closing doors of the first train. In an excited squeal, the train picked up the pace and raced down the track, blurring the graffiti darkness to streaks.
            “Well hello there,” a little boy with small pointed ears ran up to where Alex had tumbled into the train. His little stubs of glittery wings flapped frantically as the boy helped Alex up. “Are you here to tell stories?”
            Alex sat down on the nearest seat. “I suppose so.”
            “All right then,” the boy sat down on the floor and flapped his wings expectantly.
            Alex rubbed the back of his neck. “How about this one: once upon a time—”
            “Oh, yeah! I forgot to mention. Every time you tell an original story, whoever is trapped on the train car, gets to leave. You can only tell one story in each car and as soon as the train stops, you’re finished forever. Sometimes there are lots of people on each car, but you only have to tell one story to free everybody. If you don’t satisfy the train, she keeps you here.”
            “Ah,” Alex said. “Well then…hmmm.”
            The boy bounced his knees up and down. “Please don’t take too long.”
            Alex sighed and looked at the little boy. “Once upon a time, there was a little boy named David. David had a curse where he had to answer whatever question someone asked him truthfully. David was part of a secret organization with a secret underground base beneath the castle. The only reason why he was part of this organization was because he was the king’s son. There was a big problem when spies would ask David where they could find this secret base or any information they had talked about because David would have to answer truthfully to their questions. This was very bad not only for the group but also for the king. So the king sent his son on a mission to end his curse.”
            During Alex’s story, the boy would occasionally look up at the lights and duck his head like something might fall from the ceiling of the car. When nothing would happen, the boy would smile and continue nodding and watching Alex. After a point, Alex would look up at the lights to make sure they were still their florescent bluish white. He wasn’t sure what the boy was afraid of in the ceiling, but the constant glances towards the lights were starting to increase his nervousness.
            “David had to first go to the house of an old witch who lived in a small hut in the middle of the forest.”
            The train lights flickered and turned pink. The ride became rickety and the train sped up. “Oh, no,” the boy said shifting so he was sitting on his knees. “She didn’t like that very much.”
            Not original enough, Alex thought. “But you see, this witch was a toad and her hut was in a tree. So it was exceptionally hard to find.” The lights flickered again, but this time turned back to white and the train was moving slower and smoother down the track. “Fortunately, the king had a map to where this witch lived for she was a citizen of the kingdom. When David reached the tree, he slipped money in the little hole at the bottom and waited. The toad came out and said ‘how may I help you?’ and David said ‘I need your help removing this curse.’ So, the witch pulled out her magic wand,” the train lights dimmed red, “and waved her slimy fingers,” the lights got more red and the boy started to whimper, “and then in an anti-climactic motion, she went back into her tree. No bright lights, no other words,” Alex added as the lights returned to normal. “So, David wasn’t sure whether or not she had really done his bidding. But he returned to the castle anyway, because he was a smart boy who knew never to question anything a witch does. The king seeing his son’s doubt asked David if he had stolen the money to pay the witch. Now both the king and David knew the answer, and both knew it was a test, so David said that he had (which was a lie). Both father and son rejoiced and David was allowed back into the secret society. The End.”
            The lights flickered and the train slowed to a stop in front of a dark gray station. The little boy cheered, but Alex paid no attention to that. He stood up quickly, the back of his neck tingling. The station lights flew on to reveal an empty platform and a set of glowing yellow stairs. Alex held onto the edge of the car door and peered out, but the little boy pushed him out in excitement. The car billowed with little children all jumping out and cheering. The first little boy Alex had told the story to had already bounded up the golden steps and the other little children followed his lead. A few of the more polite ones thanked him, before running up the stairs.
            The train let off a hiss of engine as the last little one waddled off to join with the others. All children, he thought awestruck. The train whistled again and moved forward. The door to the second car opened and, sighing, Alex got in.

The Hitchiker

            Shayna stopped the car in front of the old railroad station and clicked the button in her new car to unlock the doors. Her hitchhiker got out and bowed his head to her.
            “Thank you very much, ma’am,” he said with a slight English accent. He pulled the collar of his navy blue trench coat closer against the new wind. His short leather-brown hair glistened in the moonlight and blew over his face with the sudden gust. She could have sworn his brown eyes glow in the light as he closed the door gently and start walking towards the tracks.
            A train hadn’t gone down those tracks in at least a decade, but Shayna was never one to question or argue when a stranger stood in the pouring rain against the edge of the woods waiting for a passing car. She didn’t ask where he had come from either when he pulled out a train ticket and very politely asked to be taken to the old station from the train number on the card. She sighed and put her handheld pistol back in the glove box before quickly driving away.
            A few miles down the street, she glanced in her rearview mirror at the blaring cop car following her. She stopped on the shoulder of the road and rolled down her windows.
            “Sorry to bother you ma’am,” the police officer said, “but have you seen a man about age twenty wearing a blue trench coat with dark brown hair and brown eyes? He’s been seen about the area.”
            Shayna’s mind went utterly blank. Her thoughts scattered like rabbits when they hear a gunshot and she looked around her, bewildered. Why the hell am I driving right now? she thought before looking back at the cop, pretending that she hadn’t forgotten when he had pulled her over. She shook her head partly to clear away the emptiness that was pressuring the inside of her skull. “No I haven’t seen anyone like that.”
            “We’re just asking that if you do see him not to pick him up.”
            “No problem.”
            “Thank you, ma’am. Have a nice night.”
            Oh that’s right,she thought, as soon as the police car was well on its way, I’m on my way home. She stepped on the accelerator of her new car and sped on the old country road towards her house.

There’s Something Romantic

There’s something romantic about falling.
You assume that you’re going to die
But then someone is there to catch you
And with him you glide across the sky.

There’s something romantic about roses
Their velvet melts your doubts away
The odor of petals is intoxicating
And their language can make any heart sway.

There’s something romantic about moonlight
The silver-gold globe softly glowing
Casting slight shadows of trees and flowers
As you feel your relaxation growing

There’s something I’m missing from all of this
Perhaps it’s a bit strange to say
I know of falling and roses and moonlight,
But there’s no one to take my heart away.